I have been in a weird place in my equestrian life for a while now. I no longer care much about competing, nor am I interested in selling horses (which was my goal for a long time). So, why have horses if I am not competitive or trying to make money? To be frank, I am not really sure of the answer other than horses are just a part of who I am. I can’t imagine not having horses in my life. They’re in my blood.

I also think my goals are simply changing. I am more interested in horsemanship, and developing a relationship with a horse. I am becoming interested in helping horses, after being reminded of the plight of so many off the track thoroughbreds during my recent horse shopping experience. While I would like to compete again at some point, it just isn’t a priority. I would rather have a bond with a horse than a blue ribbon. But maybe I will show again when I finish school. We will see.

I do still have the desire to one day have a horse business. Just not a sales business, like I used to think I wanted. I am not so good at selling horses. I would rather teach lessons, or have boarders, I think. Or maybe I’ll have a rescue of some sort some day. I am really not sure what the future will hold, I just know that horses will be in it. Always.