Following Jesus is more than pretty pictures of a Bible, and quoting Bible verses – as I have been reminded this past week that I have actually been getting into The Word every day. It is just that: following Him. It is relying on Him, instead of myself. Pursuing His will instead of my own. Surrendering to the fact that I am, in fact, not enough on my own.
I feel like for the past year (maybe more), I have been relying on myself. It worked for a while. I made good grades, excelled at work, took good care of the horses. Eventually it all started wearing on me though, and I was a bit of a mess this past semester. I am realizing now that it’s because I was trying to do everything on my own – and for myself. I really felt that God called me to pursue nursing, yet I stopped working at it for Him but rather for myself. It became too much because I lost my sense of purpose. I began asking myself, why am I even doing this? My own personal goals were no longer enough to keep me going through such an incredibly busy time.
This is just one personal example. I guess the point I am trying to make is that I just cannot follow my own will anymore, I must follow His. I cannot center my life around my own achievements and goals, I must center it around Him. Following Jesus is so much more than reading encouraging Bible verses on a bad day, it is letting Him take the lead and actually following where that may be.
“Then Jesus said to His disciples, ‘Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.'” – Matthew 16:24